I know that I could never go back, even if I wanted, even if the chance was right in front of me.
But God all other feelings I’ve had feel dull in comparison.
The dullness of these feelings have cut with more pain in the realization that it was possibly a once in a lifetime thing.
Maybe I have to wait it out a little longer.
I really hope it’s a freaking chemical imbalance.
Because even though it made me feel alive it also brought me so much pain.
But beyond logic and reason it still lingers.
With all said, I still wish I had let go sooner. Even though I don’t fault myself or anyone for how it ended. I wish it had ended on a better note.
To them, I am sorry for misunderstanding. I know that good intentions don’t negate the hurt that occurs from action taken or lack there of. Just know that even though we may disagree fundamentally on many things. I still think you’re a beautiful soul.
The puzzle pieces just didn’t align with us in this reality and that’s okay.
You’ll never read this but I set my intentions.